Is the scumb of the earth, and quite possibly even lower than that.

So right now I feel like the scumb of the earth, and if I knew what was lower than that I'm sure I feel like that instead. I've screwed up my life yet again, and when  I go to get it taken care of so I can get my act together, I feel worse than at the time of when  I screwed up, which doesn't really make sense but whatever. I feel like me messing up this time pretty much screwed my life over and any good things that I had coming to me are now gone, lost forever, shattered, never to be had again..... so ya I'm not feeling so good, I feel horrible, I feel like I'm worthless, and that I'm making some poor guy have less than what he desives if he was to ever choose me to be with, which in a way I guess is really true considering things...... why why why do I have to be such an idiot and screw my life over again just after I got things together and fixed......I'm a FAILURE at LIFE, I AM SCUMB if I'm even lucky enough to be that...........